Did I mention

On All's Souls Day I was in hospital. I was not suppose to leave (except for a cigarette...I know it's bad). I asked the nurse at 7:30 for my pills...by 9 she still had not given them to me and dh was going to meet me. I swear she did that on purpose. She gave them to everyone else and left me for last. Anyways I busted out and dh took me to the cemetary where I prayed for his aunt Rita. She died last year and I wasn't able to attend the funeral. I also found my grandfather's grave. He died before I was born. He wasn't Catholic but I prayed for him anyways. I felt more peaceful afterwards.

And when I got back to the floor no one said anything...they just figured I had went for a smoke.

I almost forgot

I almost forgot it was Friday. I was going to make meatloaf for dinner tonight and it's too late to defrost fish. Guess we'll have grilled cheese and soup. Dh will be thrilled with going to the grocery store. Again. LOL.

A list of prayers....

1. Pray

The 3 o'clock prayer

You expired, Jesus, but the source of life gushed forth for souls, and the ocean of mercy opened up for the whole world. O Fount of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy, envelope the whole world and empty Yourself out upon us.

And then, three times, "O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus, as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in You.





I adore you Oh Holy Cross, adorned by the Most Sacred Body of my Lord.
I adore you Oh My God, put on the cross for me.
I adore you Oh Holy Cross, for love of He who is my Lord. Amen.

(When prayed 5 times today 5 souls will be released from purgatory)


2. Pray the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary

3. Abstain from meat....some type of penance, which I usually choose this one.



I also am praying a few private intentions, some for myself to St. Dymphna, to St. Aloysius for my children, for the those going through the RCIA: this year I have a very special interest in it, for the unification of the church and for an end to abortion, for those in the priesthood especially seminary Matthew...whom I miss his blog. I still have the same intentions although this time I am adding those who have nothing this Christmas and rely on the help of others to enjoy this wonderful time of year, for the poor, the sick, the forgotten and those souls in purgatory.

St. Andrew

An internet friend has this name throughout her family...this is a special day for her. May she and her family have a wonderful day. This also was one of the names we debated for one of our children.

Prayer to Saint Andrew
Brother of Simon Peter, you heard John the Baptist say: "Behold the Lamb of God," and yoou chose to follow Jesus. Leaving your nets, you became a successful fisher of souls. Lover of the Crucified Christ, you too were crucified like him. Teach us to live and suffer for him and to win many souls for Christ.

Some songs

1. By the Way is done by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers. It describes bipolar perfectly. Slow, then overly fast, then normal. It's exactly how I feel.

2. The turning point for me was when I heard Amazing by Aerosmith. The words fit my life at that moment so well. I've heard it a million times before but it never meant anything. I cried. I believe God made me actually listen to the words to get better.

3. I know the Catholic church was not happy with Madonna's Like a Prayer but I've always liked it. I was listening to it and felt God's love, that He told me not to be afraid and to continue on living, He is with me and will never leave me and I felt warm and loved, like He wrapped his arms around me.


And by the way, that is my favourite picture of Jesus. My Aunt and Uncle (He was a minister in the Lutheran church: which I was raised in) gave me a little picture of that one when I was little. How I wish I still had it.

Thanks everyone

Thanks everyone for the prayers you did for me. They worked. But I think I am a little too well. I am happy about winter and the snow...I usually despise it.

I think it's time for a novena...


Novena to St. Dymphna
For the mentally afflicted.

O God, we humbly beseech You through Your servant, St. Dymphna, who sealed with her blood the love she bore You, to grant relief to those who suffer from mental afflictions and nervous disorders, especially....

St. Dymphna, helper of the mentally afflicted, pray for us.

Glory be to the Father....


I now have a really bad tremor in my hand. It bothers me sometimes but other times it's not too bad. On Sunday at mass I stuck my tongue out instead of my hand because I was worried about dropping the host.

I'm really glad with my parish priests. They both came to see me and helped me alot. I give thanks for them. They made me feel safe and loved.

RCIA is going really well. Dh is converting and I'm his sponsor. I am learning some stuff and it is making me look into things that I never thought of before.

Things to do on a Friday

1. Pray

The 3 o'clock prayer

You expired, Jesus, but the source of life gushed forth for souls, and the ocean of mercy opened up for the whole world. O Fount of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy, envelope the whole world and empty Yourself out upon us.

And then, three times, "O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus, as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in You.





I adore you Oh Holy Cross, adorned by the Most Sacred Body of my Lord.
I adore you Oh My God, put on the cross for me.
I adore you Oh Holy Cross, for love of He who is my Lord. Amen.

(When prayed 5 times today 5 souls will be released from purgatory)


2. Pray the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary

3. Abstain from meat....some type of penance, which I usually choose this one.



I also am praying a few private intentions, some for myself to St. Dymphna, to St. Aloysius for my children, for the those going through the RCIA: this year I have a very special interest in it, for the unification of the church and for an end to abortion, for those in the priesthood especially seminary Matthew...whom I miss his blog.

Todays readings....

Reading 1
2 Mc 7:1, 20-31

It happened that seven brothers with their mother were arrested
and tortured with whips and scourges by the king,
to force them to eat pork in violation of God’s law.

Most admirable and worthy of everlasting remembrance was the mother,
who saw her seven sons perish in a single day,
yet bore it courageously because of her hope in the Lord.
Filled with a noble spirit that stirred her womanly heart with manly courage,
she exhorted each of them
in the language of their ancestors with these words:
“I do not know how you came into existence in my womb;
it was not I who gave you the breath of life,
nor was it I who set in order
the elements of which each of you is composed.
Therefore, since it is the Creator of the universe
who shapes each man’s beginning,
as he brings about the origin of everything,
he, in his mercy,
will give you back both breath and life,
because you now disregard yourselves for the sake of his law.”

Antiochus, suspecting insult in her words,
thought he was being ridiculed.
As the youngest brother was still alive, the king appealed to him,
not with mere words, but with promises on oath,
to make him rich and happy if he would abandon his ancestral customs:
he would make him his Friend
and entrust him with high office.
When the youth paid no attention to him at all,
the king appealed to the mother,
urging her to advise her boy to save his life.
After he had urged her for a long time,
she went through the motions of persuading her son.
In derision of the cruel tyrant,
she leaned over close to her son and said in their native language:
“Son, have pity on me, who carried you in my womb for nine months,
nursed you for three years, brought you up,
educated and supported you to your present age.
I beg you, child, to look at the heavens and the earth
and see all that is in them;
then you will know that God did not make them out of existing things;
and in the same way the human race came into existence.
Do not be afraid of this executioner,
but be worthy of your brothers and accept death,
so that in the time of mercy I may receive you again with them.”


She had scarcely finished speaking when the youth said:
“What are you waiting for?
I will not obey the king’s command.
I obey the command of the law given to our fathers through Moses.
But you, who have contrived every kind of affliction for the Hebrews,
will not escape the hands of God.”



OK to me this is such a foretelling of Jesus and Mary. How she must have anguished like the woman mentioned above. I just love how all the things in the old testament are a foretelling of things to tell.

Feast of the Presentation of Mary

"Hail, holy throne of God, divine sanctuary, house of glory, jewel most fair, chosen treasure house, and mercy seat for the whole world, heaven showing forth the glory of God. Purest Virgin, worthy of all praise, sanctuary dedicated to God and raised above all human condition, virgin soil, unplowed field, flourishing vine, fountain pouring out waters, virgin bearing a child, mother without knowing man, hidden treasure of innocence, ornament of sanctity, by your most acceptable prayers, strong with the authority of motherhood, to our Lord and God, Creator of all, your Son who was born of you without a father, steer the ship of the Church and bring it to a quiet harbor" (adapted from a homily by St. Germanus on the Presentation of the Mother of God).

Tuesday...

The Litany of Our Lady of Perpetual Help

For Private Use Only.

Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy.
Christ, hear us.
Christ,
graciously hear us.

God, the Father of Heaven,
have mercy on us.
God the Son, Redeemer of the World,
have mercy on us.
God the Holy Spirit,
have mercy on us.
Holy Trinity, One God,
have mercy on us.

Holy Mary,
pray for us.
Holy Mother of God,
pray for us.
Holy Virgin of virgins,
pray for us.
Mother of Christ,
pray for us.
Queen conceived without the stain of Original Sin,
pray for us.
Queen the most Holy Rosary,
pray for us.
Our Lady of Perpetual Help,
pray for us.

O Mother of Perpetual Help,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may love God with all my heart,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may in all things conform my will to that of thy Divine Son,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may always shun sin, the only real evil,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may always remember my last end,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may often and devoutly receive the Sacraments,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may avoid every proximate occasion of sin,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may never neglect prayer,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may ever remember to invoke thee,
particularly in time of temptation,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may always be victorious in the hour of temptation,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may generously pardon my enemies,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may arise quickly, should I have the misfortune
of falling into mortal sin,
Come to my aid. O loving Mother.
That I may courageously resist the seductions of evil companions,
Come to my aid. O loving Mother.
That I may be strong against my own inconstancy,
Come to my aid. O loving Mother.
That I may not delay my conversion from day to day,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may labor zealously to eradicate my evil habits,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may ever love to serve thee,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may lead others to love and serve thee,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
That I may live and die in the friendship of God,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In all necessities of body and soul,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In sickness and pain,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In poverty and distress,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In persecution and abandonment,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In in grief and dereliction of mind,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In time of war, famine and contagion,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
In every danger of sin,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When assailed by the evil spirits,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When tempted by the allurements of a deceitful world,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When struggling against the inclinations of my corrupt nature,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When tempted against the holy virtue of purity,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When death is nigh,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When the loss of my senses shall warn me that my
earthly career is at an end,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When the thought of my approaching dissolution shall fill me with fear and terror,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When at the decisive hour of death, the evil spirit will endeavor
to plunge my soul into despair,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When the priest of God shall give me Extreme Unction,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When my friends and relations, surrounding my bed moved with compassion,
shall invoke thy clemency on my behalf,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When the world will vanish from my sight, and my heart will cease to beat,,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When I shall yield my soul into the hands of its Creator,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When my soul will appear before its Sovereign Judge,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When the irrevocable sentence will be pronounced,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.
When I will be suffering in Purgatory, and sighing for the vision of God,
Come to my aid, O loving Mother.



Lamb of God, Who takest away the sins of the world,
Spare us, O Lord!.
Lamb of God, Who takest away the sins of the world,
Graciously hear us, O Lord!
Lamb of God, Who takest away the sins of the world,
Have mercy on us.

V. Pray for us, our powerful Mediatrix,
R. That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.

Let us pray.
O Almighty and merciful God, Who, in order to succor the human race, hast willed the Blessed Virgin Mary to become the Mother of Thy only-begotten Son, grant, we beseech Thee, that by her intercession we may avoid the contagion of sin and serve Thee with a pure heart, through the same Christ Our Lord. Amen.







O Mother of Perpetual Help, grant that I may ever invoke thy most powerful name, which is the safeguard of the living and the salvation of the dying. O Purest Mary, O Sweetest Mary, let thy name henceforth be ever on my lips. Delay not, O Blessed Lady, to help me whenever I call on thee, for, in all my needs, in all my temptations I shall never cease to call on thee, ever repeating thy sacred name, Mary, Mary.

A little something

I've been going through a difficult time, but if you ask God he will talk to you...if only you will listen.

I asked, opened my bible pointed and got the perfect answer (OK, I had to do it twice...the first time was an introduction to a chapter). The second time was what I needed to hear. Now I have to do it...pray that I can.

And by the way I have to say my Priest is awesome. Called him Friday...within a few hours he was there for confession and communion. I know he is still praying for me.

St. Jude pray for me.
St. Rita pray for me.
St. Dymphna pray for me.
St. Job pray for me.
St. Christopher pray for me.
St. Catherine Laboure pray for me.
Our Mother of Perpetual Help pray for me.

The Lord is my shepard

23 Psalm is the reading for today...though I walk through the valley of darkness...that's me right now. I cried reading that outloud to my dh and youngest dd.

I pray that the Lord is by my side throughout this time.